Is it......

I think I'm a little depressed right now. I';l explain why.

You see, there's this really sweet guy I know that I talk to every day. Really nice, polite, and I get along great with him. For my friend's birthday, he gave her a stuffed panda, because their weren't any cows, whom he named "Sunshine". When you squeeze its right paw it says I love you twice and had a lot of my girl friends saying 'aww', including me.

So, at lunch, we all switch from talking about how spagettii is perverted to how my friend who revieced the panda, Rachael, should dump her boyfriend, Eric, and go out with the gif-giver, Carson. I join in a pitch in a few reasons why she should dump Eric and go for Carson.

After fourth period, the last class of the day, I approach Carson and I tell him about our lunch time conversation with him. Apparently, Rachael sent him a text since she was leaving school early saying she was convinced and she was going to break up with Eric (for the third time). Carson seemed a bit excited when he showed me the text and my heart sort of.....sank. I put on a fake smile and told him I'd talk to him tomorrow.

That's why I'm sort of.....depressed. I think I like Carson. I mean, I've known him since elementary school, I knew who he was but I didn't have any friends back then since I was severly anti-social, and now he's one of my closest friends. Maybe this is just a crush but, even last year, my heart would sink when he meantioned liking someone or a girlfriend.

On the other hand, my heart doesn't speed up when I look at him, I've never blushed around him. Do I like him? I don't know. I'm so confused. I thought I liked Daniel. He always put a smile on my face and I blushed around him. We've also flirted. My heart also sinks when I see him flirting with another girl since we don't have any classes togethor anymore. I don't know what to do. Maybe this feeling for Carson will pass......Hopefully.